Tuesday, July 27, 2010

New Cycle

About an hour ago I discovered that AF has made an early arrival.  YAAAAAY!  I thought my cycle was going to be off this month and it was, as today is just CD 25.  Since AF started so late in the evening, my RE considers CD1 to be tomorrow, which is fine with me, because it's CD1 of the cycle that I'm back to trying to conceive!
I'll go in Thursday for my baseline ultrasound, and I'm a little nervous.  Ok, I'm a lot nervous.  What if my antral follicle count has dropped even more?  What if I have a new huge cyst on one of my ovaries and I get sidelined for another month?  What if my ultrasound is in the same room I was in when I found out about my miscarriage, and I have a breakdown?  
What if I calm down, listen to a meditation or two and go to bed instead of freaking out?  
Posted by Shannon at 10:19 PM
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  1. PaigeJuly 27, 2010 at 10:48 PM

    Meditation over freaking out definately! CD1 is a very good thing...Sending you fertile thoughts. Let us know how it goes on Thursday.

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  2. madrecitaJuly 27, 2010 at 11:15 PM

    Good luck meditation is a VERY good idea it sounds like right now! Sending you lots of well wishes!!

    I was wondering have you ever considered acupuncture? I don't know if it is coincidence or not but the two times I did acupuncture where the two times I go pregnant. Waiting to hear about Thursday...

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  3. The Mom In MeJuly 28, 2010 at 9:48 AM

    I'm all about the guided meditations, because like you I freak out a lot. Your inner dialogue sounds very familliar! Hang in there and chilllll =D Sending soothing vibes your way for a successful dr's visit.

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  4. MichaelaJuly 28, 2010 at 10:45 AM

    Hang in there! I can't wait to hear about your u/s!

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  5. EricaJuly 28, 2010 at 2:37 PM

    Hope it goes well! I have those darn cysts...
    http://ifandsif.blogspot.com/

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  6. AnonymousJuly 28, 2010 at 3:10 PM

    Sending all the good vibes I've got your way :) I'm cycle day 1 today as well, and also the first cycle back after dealing with a miscarriage. "Cautious optimism" is the catchphrase of the day 'round these parts!

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  7. AnonymousJuly 28, 2010 at 8:24 PM

    Oh I'm excited for you! Good Luck Shannon! And it's okay to feel what you feel... even if the emotions are mixed between hope & grief. I'm Glad Flo gave you an early gift!

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  8. TiaraJuly 29, 2010 at 8:27 AM

    It's okay to freak out...let it out then move on to the positive thoughts too: What if your antral follicle count better than before? What if you don't have any cysts on either ovary? What if your ultrasound is in a different room & you get to make new happy memories? What if this is your last AF for a long time? I'm hoping it is!

    Big hugs & positive vibes coming your way!!

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