At least the bitch didn't keep me waiting.
I was so hopeful. I had symptoms. I didn't have that certainty I had with Finn, but my symptoms were enough to make me believe it was real. I'd already imagined telling my parents at Christmas with a t-shirt on Finn that says, "Big Brother."
I really don't want to do this again.
But I want another baby even more.
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Oh no! I'm so sorry to hear that, Shannon. I can completely relate to the disappointed re: telling parents. I was so hopeful about my last cycle, and I'd figured out that I would have been able to hear the heartbeat right before my dad's birthday and could announce the news to my parents then -- if the cycle had actually been a BFP. His birthday is today, and obviously I don't get to announce anything.
ReplyDeleteBig hugs to you, and I hope you can rally for your next try!
Sorry :( and hugs!!! Sorry you'll be going through this all again!
ReplyDeleteLove thinking about Finn in his Big Brother t-shirt, it may just be too much adorableness ;)
I'm so sorry. I know it's never easy to not get the outcome you want, but I hope you are able to try again soon.
ReplyDeleteI am just so sorry, Shannon. Sucks!! It really sucks!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry, Shannon. :(
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry!! I can so relate to how you are feeling. I want another child so much but the heartbreak of a cycle not working is so hard to have. Many ((((hugs)))). Thinking of you & wishing you all the best!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry, Shannon. (Hugs)
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, Shannon. I remember this despair and uncertainty. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, Shannon.
ReplyDeleteI know EXACTLY what you're talking about. It's what kept me going through 22 cycles...and while I wouldn't wish that on anyone, it made me sure that I really DID want that second child. Desperately. Even though in many ways life with 1 is so much easier as an SMC.
I'm sorry to hear this for you. I was hopeful right along with you.
ReplyDeleteThe last two lines of your post just say it all, I think. - "I really don't want to do this again. But I want another baby even more." Yeah, that. I hope the wait isn't too long and Finn gets to be a big brother soon.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you Shannon. And I am so sorry.
ReplyDeleteUgh, sorry for the bad news. ((Hugs))
ReplyDeleteThinking of you. I was sure hoping right along with you.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry.
ReplyDeleteYou've been on my mind all day. That doesn't help, but you have.
ReplyDeleteI've been sneaking peeks at my phone all day to see if you posted. I'm so sorry. I have been thinking about you so much this week. Does it help that it's cd1 and you can be trying again in two weeks, or is it just time to grieve this one not working.? So so sorry it didn't work. These mind games are torturous.
ReplyDeleteOh no, I understand how you must feel. It isa very tough process that is for sure. When you are ready, responsible and a loving mom... why can't another perfect baby just come already!!
ReplyDeleteShit.
ReplyDeleteDamn. I'm sorry.
ReplyDeleteAww, Shannon... I agree with JennyBeans - shit. I'm so sorry. :(
ReplyDeleteSorry. Was hoping for you and Finn. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteKath