The Good and the Bad

First, a huge thank you for all the comments on my last post - there were some great suggestions, but a special shout out to Tashia, for giving me such great tips!  I'll keep you all posted on the Great Nanny Hunt of 2011.

I’ve had a horrible couple of days at work.  The details don’t really matter, but last night I actually had to make a list of all the reasons I want to stay where I am now, and not go for one of those jobs I get postcards about on a weekly basis.  One of those jobs that pays more, with less hours and no hospital call – out in the middle of nowhere, of course, but more money and less work?  It’s tempting.  I doubt I’d ever take the step to go elsewhere, there are too many great things about where I live, but I’m starting to wonder if I’m crazy to want to stay.

In the meantime, Chiquitito has been making his presence known even more than usual.  As he gets bigger, his movements are more palpable and visible – and it’s easier to tell what body part I’m feeling when I rub my belly.   There are times that it feels like he’s a blender – no, a mixer – in my belly, with his limbs like the beaters against my abdomen.  I’m not sure what he’s doing then, but it’s very abrupt intense movements, and I imagine him squirming around, trying to find a comfortable spot as he rearranges my insides.  My favorite part is when I rub his little butt (or what I think is his butt) and he moves his whole body into my hand.   And then I feel his little foot, or his back, or his knee and think – in less than 6 weeks I’ll know what all these parts look like, I’ll be cuddling him outside my body.  After years and years of dreaming of being a mom, it’s hard to believe that I’m so close to finally meeting my boy.