I spent yesterday afternoon babysitting my 7 month old nephew Oliver. He is a chubby, fuzzy-headed little bundle of smiles and we had so much fun. We played on the floor for a while, ate lunch and after a brief nap we went for a long walk. As I was navigating the stroller onto the elevator I had this sudden, terrifying thought, “My sister has entrusted this little baby with me. Is she crazy? How does she know I can handle this?” That thought was followed by, “Oh, crap. How do I know I can handle this? Can I do this every day?” I’ve spent lots of time imagining being a mom, but this is the first time that my imagining actually seemed real. Terrifying and exciting, all at the same time. As I struggled to change Oliver’s diapers, and later his clothes, I sent up a little prayer that by this time next year I’m a lot better at doing both things, because I just about gave up on getting his clean shirt on yesterday. Let’s hope practice improves my baby changing skills, because I’d hate for Chiquitita to go naked because I just can’t get him/her dressed in the morning.
We took a nap together on the couch after our walk. When Oliver woke up, he twisted his head around to look up at me, and gave me a huge, toothless grin that just melted my heart. If I feel this way with my nephew, how am I going to feel when it’s my baby grinning up at me? I can’t even imagine.
My next ultrasound is coming up on Tuesday afternoon! I’ve got my fingers crossed that Chiquitita will cooperate so I can find out if I’m having a boy or a girl. I can’t believe that I have absolutely no idea, none at all. Most people seem to think I’m having a boy, but I really don’t have a feeling one way or the other. I do already have a boy name picked out, but if it’s a girl, I’ve got some work to do!
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Oliver is too cute!!! I know that feeling and I imagine it will be just so AMAZING to experience that rush of love you will have for your very own child.
ReplyDeleteBest of luck with your ultrasound. How exciting! Can't wait to hear how it goes.
ReplyDeleteWhat a munchkin!! He is just perfect!
ReplyDeleteWhat a cutie! Don't worry,by this time next year we'll both be speedy pros and changing diapers and clothes. I can't wait! Also can't wait to hear about that ultrasound.
ReplyDeleteThat is great you find out so soon - I won't find out until Dec. 6th.
ReplyDeleteYou will be changing so many diapers that you will literally be doing it in your sleep! Don't worry! I can't wait to hear what you are having!
ReplyDeleteSounds like a great day! I think all the clothes/diaper changing just becomes natural but that hasn't stopped me from reading every bit of info I can get my hands on...and I've changed thousands of diapers already between my nephews & friend's kids!!
ReplyDeleteTaking care of kids is no big deal with me.. I've read nearly every pediatrics books.. I just need helping making babies..
ReplyDeleteKeep us posted with the u/s.
He is so adorable. Like a little mini Darden. So, so, so cute.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you'll do great as a mum :-).
ReplyDeleteMy daughter smiling at me upon wakening at the beginning of the day.. the most beautiful sight, worth waking up just for that!
What a cute little boy and a sweet name as well.
ReplyDeleteI totally agree with you! First I love my nieces so much, that I can't even fathom what it will feel like when it's my own little one. I've babysat since forever it seems and so I can change clothes and diapers, but I HATE the onesie it freaks me out and I'm afraid baby parts are going to pop off or something. My sister just laughs and says don't worry I'll be a pro, she was afraid too with the first one. And I look at the little one and think, oh my gosh the next little one in the family is most likely and god willing going to be mine! Am I going to be able to handle it (of course I will), am I old enough to have a baby (definitely) and at these questions my sister laughs at me too :)