Waiting for AF

 No one tells you that the whole process of  TTC is all about AF.  Either waiting for her to start, or hoping she’ll stay away, no matter where you are in your cycle, it's all focused on AF.  I’ve spent the past two weeks hoping she’d hurry up and get here, because the sooner she came, the sooner my next period would start.  And my first period that starts 6 weeks (or later) after my D&C is the one that I can start TTC again. 

But here it is, 5 weeks since my D&C, and no AF.  Which means if AF holds off another 6 days, I can start as early as next week!  And that has me really excited (and a little nervous).  I’m trying to keep that excitement a low simmer right now, because AF really can come any day, but I’m really hoping I’ll luck out this time. 

I’ve spent the past day and a half convinced that AF was on her way, due to some lower abdominal achiness.  Until I realized that I ache all over everywhere, thanks to Monday morning’s super hard workout.  So maybe AF isn’t about to appear, maybe all I’m feeling is the result of a good workout.  But if she coming this week, she needs to hurry up and get here.  Because starting on Friday or Saturday would be just mean. 

It’s madness, trying to analyze everything my body is feeling; it’s almost as bad as the 2ww.  I’ve had to use a lot of restraint to not talk about this with my coworkers today, I know they really don’t want to hear about my periods.  But luckily I have the blogging world and discussion boards where I can share all – I really don’t know how choice moms that aren’t part of the online community do it when they’re TTC.