Final Circle and Bloom Review

Now that I'm near the end of my first 2ww with the fertility meditations by Circle and Bloom, I thought I'd give a quick update on my opinion, since I've listened to most of the meditations for the cycle.  For the most part, I really enjoyed them.  The relaxation part never fails to soothe me, but I've listened to them enough that I can actually stay awake and listen to the second part of the meditation, the part that focuses on where I am in a given cycle.  I really like the fact that there's a new mediation every day.  Not only does it keep it fresh, but it's also always right where I am in my cycle, so it's possible to focus on exactly what's happening in my body every night.  It's empowering, imagining follies growing or an embryo implanting, and relaxing, too.

I especially like the times during the 2ww where the meditation talks about negative feelings and fear.  There's a line in one of them that says something like, "negative feelings aren't going to hurt your growing embryo, but the repression of those feelings can be damaging.  So just let go."  That actually matched up with a conversation my friend Colette and I had after seeing "Eat Pray Love" last week, which made it even more powerful for me to hear it when I did.

I don't like that the meditation series I'm listening to is a combined medicated IUI/IVF cycle series, though.  I found the mentions of IVF jarring, since I'm hoping to avoid that completely, and that worked against my relaxation.  For that whole time between triggering, IUI and ovulation, the tracks just felt wrong - we weren't about to retrieve eggs from my follies, and no "bundle of cells" was about to be delivered to my uterus.  I didn't want to think about IVF, I wanted to be visualizing sperm fertilizing eggs.  I looked at the "natural cycle" meditation menu, and really wish I could have listened to some of those during that 3-4 day time period, but they're too expensive to buy the whole thing for just a couple of meditations.  So I listened to my AnjiOnline meditations on those nights.  I still don't like those anywhere near as much as the ones from C&B, but it was better than listening to IVF centered meditations for a few days.  As soon as I finish this post, I'm emailing C&B to give them my feedback - maybe they'll listen!

In my own fertility news, I POAS this morning.  Of course, it was a BFN.  I am only 10dpIUI, after all.  But I had to do it.  And now I won't POAS again...for at least another day or two.

(Bonus!  I just went to the C&B website and saw this post about a chance to win an iPad.  I'm totally linking this post to their contest! LOL)